terça-feira, 28 de outubro de 2008




Today I am particular tired and dreamer.
I need to take my vitamins...
I am anemic
(William Fritzsimmons:Passion Play)

domingo, 26 de outubro de 2008



If someone ask about me today, tell than I am to study anatomy, fysiology,virus,bakteria,sikness,bodies and human nature behavior....I am busy with this body for all day...I like my job...specially if I talk all day with a future dead...Nice right?

( Al Green: Let´s stay together)






Life ...is a mysterious way than we walk... The choise we made...the hope than we have..Experience than we live...Difference if we think about which street we take....

(From Solaris soundtrack,Cliff Martinez:Will she come back)

domingo, 19 de outubro de 2008






Life ...is a mysterious way than we walk... The choise we made...the hope than we have..Experience than we live...Difference if we think about which street we take....To think about a movie than I watched to I made a reflexion of something than I know...the choise... the choise than we made or we make.

The choise of Kevin were to alive with hope and allucination or to alive in the reality with pain.

I made a choise...to not forget and to not remember my past ......in constantly communication.
I live my life every day as normal person sometimes with a full pain in my heart because I wait too much or I would not wait...
But now I am in syncronize with myself..Realistic every time.But sometimes I need to do a big step me too.

My life is full and sad..quiet...without surprise with a destiny to dead here and live most of the part there in the other side.. divide in two because I don´t had possibility to choose something different or because in that moment was the right choise in the right time in that moment not now.

But ...I am tired sometimes...I would scream ...I would go outside ...I would leave everything than I buildt ...but I saw
I need space...calm...time..to order my life now. to do that choise than Kelvin made for him.. And I am starting now...and I do progress...yes ..for the first time..I think to myself and not to the others...only me ...to think about me and to live for me...without stress and without emocional than can give problem to myself.

I analyze myself and I must do the best for me.Because I am more important...
`Natasha`my oldfriend than she help me to reflect about myself and my past and to find a way to my future...she told me something about the right thing to do many years ago...exactly..6 years ago...and I seen the fruit about what i told me and what I made and the answer is ....I am more strong...Yes ...I am more strong...but not enough..and I must be more strong...for all my life....It was the best conversation than I had in all my life and was nice to understain what I am and what I want and how I can have and where I am... Thinking about the life and the meeting persons than can give this help are fantastic when a person feel alone and distract and without a objectiv to realize..I am realizing my objective..I am doing..And is amzing!I am myself and I am a person than want realize herself.. And I found my way...But....

Sometimes I need only to close my eyes for 5 second for alive in that space me too as Kevin..but I open my eyes I see my life ...as every day...

and I am seeing than I need to revisit my english too...Will be the next time..Not now ..I am really busy with my ordinary life...

sábado, 11 de outubro de 2008

...wake up



I need to go outside...there is a beautiful sun today....
Nice to take a cup of tea.....

quarta-feira, 8 de outubro de 2008

Secret place






Remember me a place than I saw many years ago...
when I understood and I decided about all of my life...
than I see when...................................................................



sábado, 4 de outubro de 2008

...Is not a big deal.....




Today I finish to see the all episodes of A SECRET DIARY OF A CALL GIRL...

Was nice, and incredible/credible.... expencive...

Busy....



 I am busy today.....